A desire to return home
December 22, 2009
If you’ve ever seen the Wizard of Oz movie you remember that line at the end of the movie where Dorothy said “there’s no place like home.”
I’ve been living in Florida for 4 years now but I find myself desiring to return home. I’ve had a different lifestyle here in Florida because it’s nothing like the big city. Some people are afraid of New York but when you are from a place it will always be your home.
When you feel out of sorts, like you’ve lost your way, sometimes it’s a good time to return “home”. I feel the need to see my family, go to my old church, look up old friends. (smile). I just feel the need to heal!
When you’ve been beat up and bruised by life and rejected and mistreated, sometimes it’s good to go home. Home represents those that really love and cherish you.
The only thing that is missing is my mother who is in heaven. Thats a hole in my life that I have learned to live with, that nothing else can fill. I’ve gone through some things and this is the time that I really need her. That is the hard part, but there is still some comfort in going home.
Maybe next month!
Acts 21:6:
6 And when we had taken our leave one of another, we took ship; and they returned home again.
In Gethsemane
December 21, 2009
Yesterday I went to the movies in the afternoon, but for the entire morning I had been in utter TURMOIL I arrived at the movie theater 40 minutes early and as I sat in the theater my mind was racing. I was in such turmoil I thought I might have to get a rain check and leave the theater. I was praying and asking God all kinds of questions (right there in the theater) and then all of a sudden I took out my phone and got online and I don’t know it happened, but I ended up at my own website reading my own words: http://sabinspirations.wordpress.com/2009/12/04/ After reading those words I began to realize that I was in my own personal “Gethsemane”
The garden of Gethseman was the place where Jesus struggled with the Will of the Father which was going to the cross. We will all have our “Gethsemane experiences” where we struggle with God’s will. It’s not alway the plan that we dislike or the end result, but sometimes it’s the method.
Instantly after reading my own words I realized there is still a requirement on me. All the pain lifted and I knew what God was saying. I still don’t have all the details but I know that a change that has to be made very very soon.
Have you found yourself wrestling with some things in your life. Well let your prayer be like Jesus prayed:
Passage Matthew 26:36-39:
36 Then Jesus went with them to a place called Gethsemane, and He told His disciples, Sit down here while I go over yonder and pray.
37 And taking with Him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, He began to show grief and distress of mind and was deeply depressed.
38 Then He said to them, My soul is very sad and deeply grieved, so that I am almost dying of sorrow. Stay here and keep awake and keep watch with Me.
39 And going a little farther, He threw Himself upon the ground on His face and prayed saying, My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass away from Me; nevertheless, not what I will [not what I desire], but as You will and desire.
